After reading my old blogs and my notes and his notes form fb, I find myself struggling with words, realizing what just happen to me?
I don’t know when, what and why it happened.
I’ve changed, I lost myself, I lost who I am.
Before, I used to be the girl who is a “happy go lucky”, positive thinker, a don’t think about the things around just to have fun and enjoy every moments, a Guilt Free person who always smiles. That’s why people called me Ms. Fun..
But suddenly, without me noticing it I became the worst person you could ever imagine.
I became so Fragile, negative, moody, not so fun to be with, forgot to smile with little things, forgot how to appreciates, i became a person who see things and situation in a wrong way and always see the worst in every people. Full of doubts, Rude and cruel. I never admit my mistakes And worst I hurt people feelings because I became unaware with everything, with my words and actions. I became selfish.
And because of who i become I also lost someone, I lost someone who is I taken for granted. The person who always reminds me of what’s happening with my attitude, he guided me, helps me to understand that I’m changing and becoming the person he couldn’t imagine I can be, but the he never fails to help me, he still holds on and believes in me that I can be who I was before the one he met and fell in love. And I ignore those things that he does. Yes, I only listened to myself. That’s the thing I regret.. I never listen.
So now, I will to figure out what just happened to me, why I became like this.. And how to be myself again.. Before I lost another important thing and persons in my life.
this needs to be done, I need to and must face this alone. For now, no one can help me but only myself. “I will find myself back.”
I need to start over.
After reading my old blogs and my notes and his notes form fb, I find myself struggling with words, realizing what just happen to me?
I don’t know when, what and why it happened.
I’ve changed, I lost myself, I lost who I am.
Before, I used to be the girl who is a “happy go lucky”, positive thinker, a don’t think about the things around just to have fun and enjoy every moments, a Guilt Free person who always smiles. That’s why people called me Ms. Fun..
But suddenly, without me noticing it I became the worst person you could ever imagine.
I became so Fragile, negative, moody, not so fun to be with, forgot to smile with little things, forgot how to appreciates, i became a person who see things and situation in a wrong way and always see the worst in every people. Full of doubts, Rude and cruel. I never admit my mistakes And worst I hurt people feelings because I became unaware with everything, with my words and actions. I became selfish.
And because of who i become I also lost someone, I lost someone who is I taken for granted. The person who always reminds me of what’s happening with my attitude, he guided me, helps me to understand that I’m changing and becoming the person he couldn’t imagine I can be, but the he never fails to help me, he still holds on and believes in me that I can be who I was before the one he met and fell in love. And I ignore those things that he does. Yes, I only listened to myself. That the thing that I regret.. I never listen.
So now, I will to figure out what just happened to me, why I became like this.. And how to be myself again.. Before I lost another important thing and persons in my life.
this needs to be done, I need to and must face this alone. For now, no one can help me but only myself. “I will find myself back.”
I need to start over.
